And the River is You!

1st Sermon from The Church of Rock

“And The River Is Me” by Darrell Scott

Funny, hey, choosin’ a Country Song to launch the Church of Rock? … but I didn’t want to start too many churches, [let’s leave that to those silly Christians who won’t live in harmony with one another.]  You’ll be able to find the Ministry of all types of Music welcome at the Church of Rock… [well, maybe not that satanic stuff – that’s not really congruent!]

Darrell Scott’s song, “And The River Is Me” often makes me cry as it strikes a chord deep within my soul… here are the lyrics:

From: http://www.songmeanings.net/songs/view/3530822107858678512/ and the song is on Spotify – please check it out before reading further.

I guess I’ve always known
I was in this for life1
It’s cost me some sleepless days
It’s cost me a wife
Maybe I’ve spent a little too much time
Looking in the bathroom mirror
Waiting for the steam to disappear
Thinking I was getting clearer and clearer

Maybe I could’ve been a cook
Or maybe taught high school math
Maybe I could’ve been the man on the street
With a future as uncertain as my past
But I’ve been singing for a living
Back and forth across America
Singing ‘bout things I should talk to my shrink
And to my shrink singing kum-by-yah2

With my head in a song and a song in my head
Just let me live until I’m dead
There’s so many books I wish I’d read
Like war and peace
So many friends I’ve won and lost
So many masks I’ve worn and tossed
Into troubled waters I could not cross
And the river is me, and the river is me3

River run to the ocean
River roll to the sea

They had this test back in high school
Said I had a career in forestry4
Had aptitude for isolation5
Yeah, I could live without tv
But me, I took the low road
Looking for another light
I don’t live in a tower on some fire road
But the human view is out of sight

With my head in a song and a song in my head
Just let me live until I’m dead
There’s so many words I wish I’d said
Like I’m sorry I am sorry
So many friends I’ve won and lost
So many masks I’ve worn and tossed
Into troubled waters I could not cross
And the river is me, and the river is me

River run to the ocean
River roll to the sea

…oooOOOooo…

1I recently wrote on “The Wisdom of Rectangles” – the need to pro-actively choose flexibility in response to the challenges of life.  Flexible “River-Like” people understand the power of “Vocation” – and this is a song of Vocation – of being “Called” to walk a path in life. “I was in this for life…” and, of course, any vocation has a cost.  If we were to pop back to that other “Good Book”, Jesus talks of leaving home, family, everything for a cause.  What are you “called” to?  What’s your passion?  What makes your heart burn with fire?  I love the fact that Darrell is not saying this is a noble cause – it’s just his cause – his calling.  We don’t need everyone to be saints, but we do need everyone to be themselves, congruently, authentically.

Like Dr Susan Dellinger’s Rectangle type, you hear Darrell’s soul caught in the myth that things are getting clearer and clearer.  They aren’t, they won’t, they never will… life is paradox.  You need to embrace this… I need to embrace this.

2I particularly like the lines: “Singing ‘bout things I should talk to my shrink
And to my shrink singing kum-by-yah…  This, to me, is the essence of the dilemma of what it means to be “Human”.  We just communicate to the “wrong” people… we are polite to strangers, and rude to the ones we love.  We share our hearts with the most inappropriate people, and close our hearts to the very ones who could help us.  You do know, don’t you, that we’re not supposed to walk this road alone?

3”And the River is Me” – the essence of spirituality is “Living Water” – a Life-Spring from within us welling up to Eternal Life.  It is never still.  It is never stagnant.  It is ever moving.  It is ever changing.  YOU are the River.  No-one can live your life for you… and because of this, NO ONE can legitimately tell you how to live your life.  It’s time for YOU to decide what to be, how to live, whom to love, whom to let go… the River moves on.

4 “They had this test back in high school, Said I had a career in forestry” – and here I get angry!  Two teachers made such a positive difference to my life – helped me believe in me, believe the river is me… Equally, two teachers did unspeakable damage to my self-image when I was a vulnerable child.  This is nothing short of child-abuse.  Teaching is the highest vocation – hearts and minds are in your hands, teachers.  I choose not to forgive those two idiots who had no vocation to be teachers and no love in their hearts for the wet-cement into which they were imprinting their negative images.  Shame on you.  Get a job, not a career, and leave the precious task of teaching to the professionals.

5 “Had aptitude for isolation…  God Bless the introvert and the reflective personalities.  There is NO hope for the World without us.

Find the low road, folks.  Cease this relentless pursuit of a material perception of wealth that will never satisfy you.  Look within, there you will find a kingdom tailored to mirror your own river – the kingdom of heaven itself is within you.

This is a song full of regret and equally full of authentic validation.  I know you’ve messed up.  I forgive you.  Forgive yourself.  Embrace yourself… then go and embrace someone else.  I love you.

Amen

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